Ultra Cool Mama

Oh what a week it has been… So busy with school holidays and all and full of drama not to mention. It felt as if I didn’t breath at all! I’m actually totally knackered, thought I’ll just go collapse in bed but couldn’t sleep… Maybe my brain is still running at full speed… I’m just thinking back now trying to recall what I was so busy with but I just can’t. Isn’t that weird?

Let’s see … last Sunday was our wedding anniversary (still not blogged about it yet), then was a free slimming session that my dear Joshua got for me (blog about that later), then was the dentist on the 10th (very painful) in between all that we had a broken car window, Emme has a flu (resulted in even less sleep, as if that’s possible, for me), Aiden became a mohawk (yes you read it right), picnic at park, Emme’s 3D hand and foot sculpture and Caitlyn was bitten/scratched by a crazy dog and all the usual running about so that the house continue running… Phew!!

These days I’m just surviving everyday… I would say in a blur. Most if the time I feel like a self program robot. I key in what are the out of the usual things that I need to do, incorporate it to my usual cycle and run the program… changing diapers, feed the baby, grocery shopping… in between all that someone will need a hug/fall sick/backside pain, head pain…. etc..etc… I don’t usually whine in my blog. In fact I make it a point not to in the past. I was afraid that I might be revealing too much or write something that might hurt someone’s feelings… blah,blah,blah.. Most of all I didn’t want my kids to read it (if they read my blog) in future. But lately after reading a fellow Mommy blogger’s blog, she is totally HONEST on her blog and is NOT afraid of what she blogs about. I thought to myself… “Wow! She is so brave..” When I spoke to her she just simply said, ‘ I don’t care!! It’s my blog what!’  So true… And as for the kids, she says.. then they’ll know that their Mommy is also human. **grin**

That’s also so true.. Sometimes I read some other bloggers blogs… All nice and rosey.. I thought to myself, “What!!? Are they on Prozac or what?”

So I thought about it for a long time… What kind of blogger do I want to be? Am I gonna be honest with my entries? Am I brave enough to be totally honest? Hmmm… I still don’t have the answer. But I’ve decided that I will, try.. to be as honest as possible. It’s kinda scary for me… since I know, when I’m being totally honest, there will be prices that I’ll have to pay…  But like what my friend said… and if my purpose for blogging is so that Aiden, Caitlyn and now Emme can read about it later, Mommy will have to be more ‘human’… I don’t want to be like those Mommies who pose to be like a super duper Mom where everyday is rainbows, cotton candies and happy pills…