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This photo is one of the many that I took last Saturday morning at home while we were just chilling out at home and it was nice and cool as the rain was just starting to pour outside. It really difficult to catch them all in a good mood for a photoshoot and plus Emme as well, coz she is either sleeping or crying  Thus so this impromptu photo session at home…

I uploaded this LO in FB yesterday, when Ultra Cool Daddy saw it when he landed (sure check FB!!) He says that he is in awe that these are our children… That made me stop and think.. Ya-lah.. How did I give birth to all these 3 little human beings? I mean, I was the cool party girl ok! How did I become a mother of 3 small kids and a stay at home Mom some more!!

Now a days I really hardly have any time for the older 2 not to mention myself.. Before Emme came along I would say that it was rather balance still. In terms of time and attention given to the both of them. But ever since Emme came along my life has been all about her… I’m tired all the time and honestly.. I feel like shit most of the time. I really pity Aiden and Cait too.. I know that Caitlyn feels it the most because before her sister, she was constantly with me and had all the attention. Now I’m just constantly carrying her as Emme doesn’t want to be put down. The only time my hands are free is when she naps in the afternoon.. Otherwise she’ll be screaming to be picked up. How leh?

Everyone says “Aiyah.. Don’t worry lah.. A few more years it’ll be easier lah!” A FEW MORE YEARS wor!!!! I don’t know if I’ll make it to a few more years.. Can we like hit the fast forward button please!!  Before I go crazy and kill the kids or myself…

Don’t get me wrong. It’s not like I don’t love them.. I do, more then anything. But I’m just going crazy and just making it through everyday…